Making Connections

Last night, I bounced all over Scripture. I would have to look at my notes to tell you about any central theme. Right now, I don’t recall one. But what I can tell you is that I am very excited about where these days and this study will take me. I know that by the end of 60 days, I will be so different – it will amaze even those closest to me. I believe that. You can’t spend time with God and not be changed, encouraged, and strengthened.

What I am enjoying right now is all of the connections between verses I’ve known for years but never figured out that they are related. Concepts. Doctrine. It just tickles me to see how the word is knit together so closely. According to a recent podcast on apologetics.com (Bible Version Alphabet Soup), somewhere around 22% of Christians read their Bible on a regular basis. I shouldn’t be surprised by that number. Somehow I am, though. I would read devotionals but not my Bible. They are not the same thing. No devotional or external study book can replace reading God’s word for yourself. They can help clarify things you don’t understand. They can take you in new directions.

Also, I can’t wait to learn more. Anytime I can, I have buried myself in looking up scripture on Bible Gateway. I listen to podcasts and jot down notes and verses to look up when I can. I want to know more now! 🙂

Sixty Days

Let me give you the back story in fewer than a million words. Mark’s wife is coming home. He spent 5 and a half years believing for the restoration of his family. Right now, they are just going to be roommates but he believes that it won’t be long before they return to being husband and wife.

Mark and I spent the last 3 years talking to each other on the phone… uh… probably almost every day. We would have long conversations about his wife, his kids, my job, my house, politics, Christianity and religion, sex, what makes a man, what makes a woman… you name it, we probably talked about it. From the very first conversation, it was very at ease. There are few people on this planet that know me as well as Mark. There are few people that I have learned so much from. I have learned alot about faith, believing, love, poker, healing, prosperity from him. Much of that revealed to him. But as Jerry Savelle says, you can’t stand on someone else’s revelation.

So with his wife coming back home, that means our 2, 3, sometimes 4 or 5 hour marathon phone conversations will end. They certainly won’t be every night. I felt like there will be a giant void… a hole. The night he told me she was coming home, I was overjoyed for him. But when I went to bed, my bed felt like I was asleep in the middle of a giant football stadium. It never felt so huge. I never felt so small. I cried myself to sleep that night. Who would I talk to about spiritual things? Monetary policy? How in the world would so-n-so play Doyle’s hand when the flop was… (ok, so I made that part up.. there are very few poker hands I remember. I just watch it because Daniel Negreanu is awesome.)

Mark said to me last night ‘You can receive this as prophetic. You will find your husband. You will find him soon. Our God does not take away. He is a God of blessing and increase. God is not taking you from me. He’s bringing Shanna back to me. He’s not taking me from you. He has someone better. You are one of my best friends. I can see the day where your husband and I and Shanna and I are hanging out together. He will make the transition seamless.’

“I hear you… but how? How do I believe this? I want to. It stinks that you and your sister have more faith on this than I do. I want to believe this. I want to stand in faith and know that I know I will be married. Because right now, all I see is the void. To fill that, it will need to be quick.”

“He will reveal that to you.

So I got off the phone last night. I laid there in the bed yimmer-yammering to God. I finally heard the still-small voice.

“Give me 2 hours a day for the next 60 days.”

“Huh?”

“Spend 2 hours a day in my word… in addition to your daily podcasts on the bus ride.”

“OK. I will do that. Willing and obedient.”

I believe that I will be married. The desire and the dream has been placed on my heart by God. I don’t know when, but it will happen.

Today was day one. I spent alot of time is Isaiah 54.

5 For your Maker is your Husband–the Lord of hosts is His name–and the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; the God of the whole earth He is called.

10 For though the mountains should depart and the hills be shaken or removed, yet My love and kindness shall not depart from you, nor shall My covenant of peace and completeness be removed, says the Lord, Who has compassion on you.

Footnote in the Amplified version: Although this chapter is primarily intended to express Zion’s joy over redemption, it has also a very personal, long-neglected, and often overlooked message for women–the lonely, the disappointed, the childless, the widow. It has all the glorious confidence and assurance, the incentive and understanding, for which feminine hearts have longed throughout the ages! Every woman who will read it every week for a year with receptive heart and mind will find herself not only spiritually prepared for her own childlessness or widowhood, should it come, but also supplied with rich treasure with which to address the similar needs of countless other aching hearts to whom the Holy Spirit is here speaking.

I will share with you what God is teaching me along the way. By posting here regularly, I can keep accountable for the task God has directed me to do. I know by the end, I will be much stronger in my faith, healing in any number of ways, closer to Him than I’ve ever been before.

Lord, open my eyes, ears and heart to hear you.